Coming Back To Life

After so many days I am feeling as if I am coming back to my professional life. Reason is absolutely simple, today after so many days I got a chance to do Load Testing of a Swing Application. I realized how much I missed it. For the first time in over a year I was so happy returning back from office and planning for Monday.

I tested a swing application with 500 vusers. Those 500 users were sending over a million messages on the server on a random basis. I will not go further deep into all this due to some confidential reasons as well as also I do not want this blog to be a technical one.

What I am trying to emphasize here is the amount of satisfaction one gets after doing the work one likes. I have felt it and riding high on it. That is the reason I have told everyone to do the work he/she likes. There isn’t much required to get when one is satisfied in life.

And that is not the only reason due to which I am feeling as if I am breathing again, there are many others –

• Now I am able to do estimation for my project and those are agreed by the management team.
• I am able to say “NO” to a task which I think is not doable. I am only asked to explain the reasons for it. When I do so (I think I am a reasonable guyJ), the tasks get removed from the PMP.
• I am sitting with a Business Analyst to understand the business need for the release and then make my requirement document to further understand it.
• In spite of being a load testing guy I am being asked to learn Functional Automation and implement it in my project. The logic being given to me that being at a level I am in I need to understand every aspect of the area I am in so that I can guide the rest. Again, that is a choice not brute forcing.
  
  In addition to all this, my goals are mapped with my current role. I have a great work and life balance where I am spending a lot of quality time with my family and my sweet little angel called “Nayanika”.
  
  Although I am not living in a perfect professional world, yet I am enjoying it. And by the way who wants a perfect world? I just remembered the Pink Floyd song –
  
  Where were you when I was burned and broken

While the days slipped by from my window watching
And where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life………….

I took a heavenly ride through our silenceI knew the waiting had begun
And I headed straight..into the shining sun